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Thursday, November 13, 2008

Half way done

I have now had 10 chemo appointments, hard to believe. I have 6 left. Only 6 more weeks. Yesterday my friend Maryam came to chemo with me. She said, "this has gone by really fast." And the other day someone said that to me. For me, this has been the longest 5 months 11 days of my life. I have gone through hell and more and I just can't wait to be done with the treatments.

The doc told me yesterday that the reason my eyes have been watering non-stop is that its not from the lack of my lashes. But this chemo drug makes scar tissue in the tear ducts so I need to go see a eye doctor specialist so that if this is what is happening he can prick my tear ducts so the tears can go down through them again. He said the doctor can do it without torture. We'll see about that. I can't wait to stop poisoning and killing off my body. I can't wait to get really healthy again. I have officially gained 13 pounds, my Onc said I could gain up to 20. I have never been this heavy in my life.

1 comment:

apriljahns said...

I have often thought as I read your blog, "wow. this all seems so fast." but have never asked if this feels like an eternity for you because I didn't want to focus your energy on how long it probably feels to you. It was silly to think that by not asking you weren't thinking about how slow time must be passing.