More Liquid

I will write more tomorrow when I know more, but I found out today that I have liquid around my heart too. And to make a correction, I do not have liquid in my lungs, but around them. I can't lay down anymore because my lungs hurt, and what I thought was my lungs, is maybe my heart? Who knows. My leggs have swollen hugely again, really really bad edema. D and I moved into our new place and we don't have computer access yet. So I haven't been so good at keeping this up. I've been at the doc's all day for various testing. I feel really weak and tired, and have high blood pressure suddenly. This sucks. My Onc said that I probably have to go on more steroids which sucks because I hate them. That was for treating the inflammation around my lungs and a diruretic for the water around my lungs. But how he'll treat the water around my heart is a whole other thing. I am not supposed to know that I have water there yet, but I begged the nice technician who did the ultra sound to explain what she was seeing. There is a good amount in there. So well see. This really is starting to make more sense to me. Why its been so hard to just walk to the kitchen, walk up stairs, why my heart feels like its leaping out of my chest, why my chest hurts, why I can't lay flat, why when I stand up it doesn't hurt anymore..on and on...